so, i was sitting here this evening, going over my life of the past year or so, and i've come to some really great conclusions without particularly sticking to one way of thinking, or one opinion, etc. what i think i'm realizing is that when i felt so ill almost a year ago with the idea that i had 5 years clean and felt no different inside, i was still living my life according to other people's ideas, silent demands, etc. what i'm coming to understand and therefore experience now, is collecting ideas that work, because they make sense or make me feel a certain way--wouldn't that be as authentic as it gets?
i certainly hope so. no one can really tell us what direction to go in--we may take their suggestions and head out onto that road, but how many of us follow it the entire way?
is this how to live, though? to be in charge of my own destiny? would it be fair to say that God has a hand in our decisions, anyway? that the truth always exists, and our decisions become the right ones, because we continue to learn from our experience?
growing up is hard to do. any suggestions/thoughts?
a quick rundown:
- Katie C.
- Grand Rapids, MI, United States
- I am a major goofball--I love making people laugh and having fun and being totally silly. I'm not afraid to be introspective, and really believe that if I help myself, I can better help the world.
2 comments:
comment: I agree, growing up is hard to do.
suggestion: keep growing up.
:)
I love you.
Agreed. I wish I had the balls to refuse to.
But, alas, I consent to joining the ranks of people who pretend to know what the hell is going on.
:-) I love you. And I can't wait until you come to Nashville! So we can continue to be non-grownups together, at least for a weekend. :-D
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